July 2011
This is what heartbreak feels like
“There is nothing worse than the person you trust most, love most, and believe in most letting you down and giving up. There’s nothing worse than knowing you could cry and the person you love could watch the tears drop from your eyes, hear you ask, “How can you do this to me?” and walk away from your relationship. Nothing worse.”
“How can you love someone so f… so flawed,” I said.
“Flawed?”
“Yeah,” I said, trying to stay calm but not fully succeeding. “Flawed. Because if you just love, no matter what, like it’s not a choice, it’s just… you get what you get - then so what, you know? You may as well love a stuffed animal, or a rock, or the person behind her in the supermarket line. But if you love somebody because she’s...
“Don’t patronise me with lies / I’m a man - be a woman now”
Monsters don't sleep under your bed. They sleep...
I look at myself from an outsider’s pov and I can see strands of strained tolerance and how hard I’m gripping it. I try to not sympathise myself because I am not a goddamned pity case
Ffs don’t take me for an idiot I have a fucking BRAIN
I forgot to mention, my mentality is in SHREDS
This is too taxing on my mentality
I Hope You Find It
Which loser cries herself to a massive headache?
This burden of worry taking refuge on my shoulders. The mental distress on my mind. When can I be relieved of it?
I must be so fucking repulsive to you.
I have so many problems but I don't know how to...
If it doesn’t break, if it doesn’t break, if it doesn’t break
If it doesn’t break your heart, it isn’t love
No, if it doesn’t break your heart, it’s not enough
It’s when you’re breaking down with your insides coming out
That’s when you find out what your heart is made of
These days pass me by
I dream with open eyes
Nightmares haunt my days
Visions blur my nights
Why?
